So first
I want to start off by saying how sorry I am for neglecting my blog for so long
(almost two months like whaa), honestly I have no excuse but to say that I’ve
been crazy busy…but the fact of the matter is I can’t even use that as an
excuse. To be honest I just didn’t have much to write about my life has and
still consists of work and classes but still I have missed writing. Sooo with
that being said I am back and will try to write at least once a week from now
on (forgive me if I don’t occasionally lol I’m only a person).
I’ve
been doing a lot of soul searching and assessing my life so far (I guess since
my birthday’s coming up I got all nostalgic and what not lol!) and I realized
just how much I miss being a kid and the lack of responsibility. Like now the
first thing people ask me when they see me is so what’s your major? Or what do
you want to be? And I’m just here like ummmmm idk lol a lawyer? I study
communication? Like I miss the days when the first thing people would ask me
would be how old are you? What do you like to do? What’s your favorite subject
in school? All I wanna know is when did that stop? I get that people aren’t worried
about how old I am but to be completely honest I’m still not sure where I’m
headed in life (mom if you’re reading this I still wanna be a lawyer lol! Your
tuition money is not going to waste!) But like seriously I miss not worrying
about health insurance and what majors will help me get a job or having to pay
off student loans after school, the stress of worrying is overwhelming!
Above
all I miss SLEEP. Honestly I can’t tell you the last time that I got 6
consecutive hours of sleep (thank God for Dunkin & Starbucks) I
legitimately only function because of coffee. And this isn’t a rant I am
thankful that I was able to grow and come into the independent woman I am today
but like I now realize how easy I had it before and how ungrateful I was. When
I was 11 I wanted to be 13, when I was 13 I wanted to be 16 because I didn’t
realize how easy life was then (now I’m 20 and want to be 6 again lol!) And I
heard it all before, to stop wishing I was older and cherish each year before
responsibilities (but of course I didn’t listen) but I have come to reminisce
about all the time I had before and I miss it. I miss being dependent, not having
to do things for myself and not just sleeping at night but having naptime too!
At
the end of the day I am so proud of how far I’ve come through all of my
accomplishments and tribulations and I love the independent woman that I am and
if I had the chance I would not change one step of the journey that brought me
to this point. But I would definitely take a few more naps along the way…you
know for good measure ;).
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